Good day, welcome back!!We found out in June that we are expecting. This exciting news came to us only months after talking about starting a family. Both my husband and I were excited. He more so than me. I had always wanted to be happy and free of stress when I envisioned finding out I was pregnant. Instead, I stared at the little test squares confused as I looked at the results. I mean the + sign came through with a faint horizontal line and a big bold vertical line. “Was I reading this correctly?” was all I could think.
I told my husband over the phone while he was working. He asked if I was sure, and I said almost certainly YES, but I planned to take another test that afternoon at work. I then called my mother to inform her as he called his to let her in on the news as well. Of the three tests I took that day, all came back with immediate results of a baby on the way. So, I scheduled a visit with my doctor.
A week or so later and we have images on paper proving there is indeed life inside me. It is truly amazing the images produced so early in pregnancy-you build so much excitement up and we had a very hard time keeping it a secret. Almost all of our family and co-workers were given the news. Everyone around us was excited for us.
With my weeks flying by, I had wonderful bouts of “morning” sickness-primarily in the late morning or early afternoon. Once I got into my second trimester-my sickness grew more frequent. It was nothing that I would say is terrible. I always had a window of time that I knew it was going to happen.
I came upon my 15th week and ended a three day quest for some delicious gyros. Almost immediately after settling my taste for gyros I knew something was not right. I started to bleed, or spot. (may be TMI, but needs to be mentioned) This is not typical in the second trimester. I tried to remain calm-but having read almost entirely through
What to Expect When You’re Expecting and
Mayo Clinic’s Healthy Pregnancy I suspected problems. I let my husband know and called my mother. She confirmed that I should contact the doctor.
My doctor’s office had closed hours before so I had to call the emergency on call physician. She called me back and explained that my placenta could be sitting too low to the opening of the cervix and this could cause some bleeding. She scheduled an early morning visit to the hospital and told me if the situation go worse to call back and head to the ER, but most of all to rest and remain calm.
The visit the next day confirmed that the placenta is in fact laying very low and covering the opening. I have
Placenta Previa. I also had scarring from a previous cervical surgery that had separation and may have been the cause of the bleeding. We can only monitor the situation and see if it corrects itself. Extreme cases of previa can result is the loss of the baby, the mother, or in some cases both. I did find information, however, supporting the idea that 90% of previa cases diagnosed before the 20th week of pregnancy correct themselves and lead to no labor issues. Most previa cases need to be delivered early and by Cesarean.
Now-this is where I am currently. Today marks week 17. I have seen and heard my baby. I have yet to feel anything I would classify as movement. I feel calm for the most part, but I still hold on to some concern. I have always been a defensive pessimist, but I feel better preparing my self for any situation. I have not by any means, lost hope in the strength of me and my baby. I feel that it is reasonable to have concern and should not have to be ashamed that I am concerned. Isn’t that part of a mothers job? Don’t they always wish and hope for the best for their children?
As of late, I feel that I cannot express my concerns to anyone in my family or friends. I was already given a small lecture from my mother about worrying too much. I also don’t want to bother my easygoing husband with my concerns. I know this is not right. I should have a strong network of support-people that will listen and not criticize. People that will give me the opportunity to speak my thoughts. I don’t want to be told that I should not worry, or that everything will be all right. THAT IS my ultimate hope as well. i want to be best prepared and enjoy my pregnancy-which to date I have.
So I turn to my blog. After almost five months, I want to inform my few readers of my concerns and situation. I have prayers, family, and friends that all wish the best. I have an intense connection with my child already. I don’t know that this is normal. I have few friends that are parents and don’t feel comfortable talking to those who aren’t. I am sure they are sick of hearing about my pregnancy already and we aren’t even halfway through it yet.
So thank you readers! Thank you for giving me an open environment to vent and share. I appreciate you. I am hopeful that I will be creating more entries in the future. Sorry to leave you hanging for so long.
—-Ambrosia’s tale is not over. It will continue 🙂 Please review if you aren’t aware.
Till next time. BE GOOD, BE TRUE, BE REAL
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